Welcome to the Mad House: January 2009

Last week one of my co-workers past away in her sleep, she was only 31 years old. After her sudden death I couldn't help but ponder my own life and how much I take it for granted. I am grateful for so much and tend to overlook the things that I should be praising on a daily basis. For starters I am so blessed to have such a wonderful son. Tyler is 5 years old and such a joy in my life, I love being a mother and wish that I could be with him through all of his experiences. Unfortunately, I am a single mother and have to work full time so my time with him consist of a few hours in the evening before he goes to bed. I feel like I miss out on so much including the small things like taking him to school and picking him up. I know that sounds frivolous but I would give anything to be one of those overbearing soccer moms that drives there kids to school and activities everyday.

This brings me to my next source of gratitude, my parents. They are so supportive in all that I do and help me so much, I truly couldn't do it without them. My mom and dad (mom mostly) take Tyler to school, swim practice, birthday parties, etc...all the things I wish I could do but can't because of work. I am so blessed to have such wonderful parents and probably don't tell them thank you enough. So mom, dad, if you are reading this a BIG thank you to you!!!

Another person in my life that I must credit is my boyfriend Deke. We have been together since August but I feel like I've known him my whole life. He is such a great example to me and so wonderful to Tyler. The thing that drew me to him the most was his optimistic attitude, he is always smiling and always happy. After hanging out with him a few times I knew that he was a person worth getting to know. I am so grateful to have found someone who loves me unconditionally and treats me the way I deserve to be treated. I love him so much and can't wait to see what the future holds for us.

It's easy to forget how fragile life truly is. We live in such a fast pace world that sometimes we tend to run through everyday life without enjoying the beauty all around us. My co-worker Erin did not know that Tuesday January 20th 2009 was her last day on this earth. She did not know that when she said goodnight to her family that Monday that it would be the last time. Her death was unexpected and tragic but reminds us that we do not know when our time is up. I assume that I will live a long prosperous life, I assume that I will die when I'm old and decrepit, I assume that I will have children and grandchildren and possibly great grandchildren, I assume too much. Nobody knows when its their turn to check out so live each day like its you last. Appreciate family, friends, co-workers, and the beautiful world in which we live in.

We will all miss Erin and her big smile and bright blue eyes. I take comfort in knowing that she is in a better place and out of any pain that she might have been suffering. Although their is grief in her death I must thank her for reminding me to slow down, appreciate loved ones, laugh more, sing often, smell the roses, and just enjoy life. You will be missed Erin!